Wow has it been 2 years???

I cannot believe it's been 2 years since I've updated this! Time is really flying by... We are all so busy all the time it seems. Treston is doing well. He has been discharged from physical therapy and only goes for checkups every 6 months. He saw his cardiologist a couple weeks ago and they said his heart is perfect! They had him wear a 24-hour holter monitor, which they said is going to be routine every so often. He handled it very well and his results came back normal. He sees his cardiologist once a year and his neuromuscular Dr twice a year. He has an appointment in a couple weeks for that. He is taking swimming lessons and a boys' tumbling class at the y and he is doing great in both! Monday night was the third year in a row that we went to the MDA'S Dave and Buster's night. They get to decorate pumpkins, eat dinner and everyone in the family is given a card to play games downstairs. We really look forward to it every year now. There are a lot of other families that attend. Sometimes it's emotional to be at events like that because I see other kids in wheelchairs and while I'm thankful that Treston is doing as well as he is, I feel for the other kids and sometimes let my mind roam to wondering if that will be my child at some point. I know he is in God's hands though, but sometimes I just need to remind myself of that. Well, just thought I'd update since it's been a while.

Is this the same kid?

So, I was in the middle of making a blog for our business when I thought I would update everyone since it's been awhile. Treston is doing absolutely awesome!!! That boy is running around and doing everything a "normal" 21 month old boy should be doing! He even went on the potty this morning :-)
Right before our newest baby, Tyana was born in May, Treston's physical therapists thought it was ok to take a break from PT. Well, she is 3 1/2 months old now and he hasn't needed to go back! They were thinking about a 6 week break, but our God is bigger than that! He still gets speech therapy twice a week, but I have faith that that is nearing it's end as well since he's doing so well speaking also!
He has had his regular follow ups with his neurologist and cardiologist and they are just so impressed with his progress! He had an appointment with an ENT last week and he didn't really want to do the hearing screening. The stuffed animals lighting up in the boxes in the sound room really freaked him out! He kept trying to get down off my lap and saying, "done, done!" Poor guy, those things kind of remind me of the monkey with cymbals in that one horror movie, what's it called again? Well, the ENT said since he doesn't see enough movement in his eardrum he recommends getting tubes put in. I told him I wasn't going to put him under anesthesia and put him through surgery right now since he isn't getting ear infections at all and his speech is coming along great! He said that's fine for now and wants to see him back in 6 months.
I titled this entry "Is this the same kid?" because when he first started seeing therapists, they told me they didn't even know whether he would ever sit up or crawl. My boy is running around like any boy his age. He was climbing up a metal fence the other day all the way to the top! He grew out of his ankle braces and although he still needs them, they are shorter ones now. He goes to storytime at the library and the woman who does the storytime told Jon yesterday that he just looks so much better than he did a while ago. Who knew she was even watching him?! Our God is an AMAZING GOD! He gives mercy all day everyday. I hope and pray that no matter what happens that Treston learns that much. I pray he learns that no matter what happens to him that God is merciful and gracious and he DOES supply ALL our needs. God is the only one who knows what is best for us. If we try to give our children what is best for them, how much more does our Father in Heaven give us what's best for us?

Update

So, I haven't updated in quite a while! In Treston's case, no news is good news, praise the Lord!!! He has been doing awesome! At the request of his physical therapists, he got his SureSteps braces and has been using them for a few months now because his ankles turn in pretty badly. His therapy that he was having twice a week went down to once a week because of how well he's doing! He is still getting early intervention therapy twice a month. They have recommended an early educator come out to assess his speech, so she came out to evaluate him and wanted to see him back, but she had to cancel due to sickness and hasn't called back yet to reschedule. We are also getting a speech evaluation done at Theraplay which is where he goes for his physical therapy. He has been saying dada, but very little of mama or anything else so they just want to see if there is anything that can be done to help him at this point. He has also seen an audiologist for his hearing to make sure that isn't the issue. She thought maybe there was fluid in his ears and wanted the pediatrician to look at them. He went to the pediatician yesterday and she said his left ear is infected, but that wasn't the ear the audiologist was concerned about. Well, he had a few days earlier in the week where he had a low-grade fever, so maybe that's what it was from. I gave him some mullein garlic drops, but he seems perfectly fine anyway. We go to the ENT on Monday at Chop so we'll see what they say. I don't really think he has a hearing issue, but I guess when kids don't speak or make the sounds they should by certain ages, they need to rule out hearing problems. He has been doing awesome in his physical therapy! He even took a few steps a couple different times now! He still likes to cruise and walk holding someone's hand, but I think it's more him being unsure than unable!! We got him a small basketball net for Christmas and he absolutely loves picking up the ball and having someone pick him up so he can put it in the basket! It is the cutest thing! He is already so different than the girls! He loves to climb and loooooves to eat...everything, haha! He just goes from eating one thing to another all day it seems and he's still so little! (Wish I could do that!) He is going back to Chop on Thursday for a regular check-up. Please pray that everything goes well. I think his genetic counselor said they wanted to do another ultrasound on his muscles, but I'm not positive on that. Thank you to all of you that have been praying for him and for us. God has been faithful and is continuing to do a good work in us. Here are some pictures we took from his birthday and Christmas. I just melt when he looks at me with those big blue eyes!!! 

Update on Gracie

Wednesday Gracie had her procedure done. It was early, and she wasn't allowed to eat or drink anything (not that she cared that much about the eating thing, but she always wants water!), and she is still scared to death of people, so needless to say, it was a pretty rough morning for her. I carried her into the procedure room and she cried all the way until she was actually asleep from the anesthesia. It was a pretty quick procedure and the doctor came in and told us she saw nothing visible to be concerned about and that we would find out the results of the biopsies they took within 3-5 business days. This has been such a busy week and we have all been so exhausted!
Wednesday evening Jon took the older two to care group and I stayed home with the little ones so they could get to bed early and get some rest. I laid Treston on his play mat on his back and took Gracie upstairs to change her and put her in her high chair for dinner and when I went back down to get him, he was on his tummy looking at me! Praise the Lord! He had rolled over and I missed it! He is really loving rolling over now, though, so I've gotten to see it plenty since then. :) He also got another tooth since then, #3!

Cardiologist Appointment

Today we took Treston to see a cardiologist at CHOP. He had an echo done, which was supposed to take 45 minutes, but took over an hour and a half due to having to take some breaks for feeding him and calming him. Then they did an ekg on his heart. I never knew they had to hook up so many things for that! He has been so good for all these appointments. They have all lasted at least 4 hours so far and he has been just the happiest baby through it all. After having been there over 3 hours today, they doctor walked in and he was just all smiles for her. At one end it breaks my heart because he has no idea what is going on. On the other end, he amazes me. I know the Bible talks about child like faith, but, not being a child anymore, it's hard sometimes to imagine having that. Treston looks up at me, he looks up at his daddy, his sisters, his grandparents, his doctors, and he is just content. And when he is upset or needs comforting or feeding, he looks to me and expects me to give him what he needs. It seems so simple, this child like faith. And yet, recently, because of everything that is going on, I feel like I am just talking to God like he really is my father. Just like Treston is looking to me, expecting me to fix what is bothering him, I know now I need to just look to my heavenly father, and learn to pray expectantly. Not only that He will heal Treston, but that he WILL bring us through this. He will.
Well, the cardiologist said Treston's heart is good! Praise God! We go back in a year unless he starts getting weakness in his muscles before then.

Tomorrow is another day at CHOP. My little girl Gracie is having an endoscopy and sygmoidoscopy done. They will be taking biopsies along the way. We are hoping for an answer to her problem as well. But, God is good. We will praise Him and thank Him no matter what. The message at church on Sunday I really am convinced was directed toward me. I just can't get out of my head "love God for what He is, not what He does." He has a purpose. None of this is for nothing.

Memorial Day and New Teeth

We had a good Memorial Day yesterday. We did the usual and went to my parent's house for a picnic. We really wanted to take the little ones swimming, but the water was too cold. It certainly didn't stop the two older ones, though! Treston had physical therapy this morning and we broke the news to our favorite therapist, Beth. She said she was going to do some research on the specific types of muscular dystrophy that he has the possibility of having. She said right now the only thing she would change about his treatment is that they won't work him too hard after he starts to get tired out. She said that with muscular dystrophy, the muscles get tired much easier so it's important not to over work them. We have been really blessed with the physical therapists he has. They are very thorough and very caring. I forgot to mention that Treston got his first tooth in on Friday! He got his second one yesterday. I can't wait until he starts doing those toothy smiles that babies do when they only have those two bottom teeth! I am just having more and more fun with my little guy every day. Every day now I look at him and just wish he could just stay just as he is right now, forever. He loves it when I play with him on our bed. We just play and he laughs and gets so excited! Then when he gets tired he just snuggles right into me. It is one of the greatest feelings in the world. His having muscular dystrophy is always in my mind though. I try so hard to forget it and just have fun with him, but even while I'm really enjoying him, the thoughts are always there. No matter what I'm doing, things just seem so surreal right now. I hope this gets easier.

A Diagnosis

Friday, May 25, 2012...
I will never forget that date as long as I live. We received a phone call from Chop on Wednesday afternoon asking us to come in on Friday morning at 8am. They said a specific neurologist that was there only once a month wanted to take a look at Treston's case and they had the lab result. For the next day and a half we prayed and thought of nothing else.
First, the physical therapist came in and evaluated him. He said he looks great, right on target save for his head lag. We thought that was good news. Then, the genetic counselor came in. She said we have an answer...muscular dystrophy. I felt faint. I felt like it wasn't quite real. I didn't know what to feel. They said they aren't sure what kind it is yet. They have narrowed it down to three...congenital, emery-dreifuss or limb-girdle. They won't know what type it is until they know when the onset of it is. They originally thought that his hypotonia was the onset, which would mean congenital, but when they saw how he has improved, they weren't sure. They tested Jon and me to see if we have it because if we do, then he would turn out ok like us, but they said they don't expect us to have it so that's pretty much a long shot. They told us they have to monitor his heart, because he is at risk for heart complications, so we made a cardiologist appointment for June 5. They said we have to watch for contractures, joint stiffness. The physical therapist said his hips feel a little tight and to let his regular physical therapists know so they can give us some excercises to work on with him.
We had all the kids with us that day and I actually think it helped keep me together that day. I think it finally hit me that night. I have this huge knot inside me now. I always wondered how parents handled getting news like this about their children. I just could never imagine. I still can't. I don't know how to look at my baby boy while he's looking up at me with those trusting, big, blue eyes and know that I can't help him. As a mother, you just always want to make everything better for your kids. You want them to feel no pain, ever. I don't know how this is going to look over the years, but I do know deep down that God has a plan. As hard as this is, I know God has a reason for allowing this. Just like I have to focus on his physical care, I feel like I need to focus on his spiritual care even more in the coming years. I want him to grow up to know God and to trust God no matter what his life is like.

I'm trying so hard to just trust in God. I need Him so much right now. I can't imagine going through this without Him. We need prayers. We need support. Right now I am constantly talking to God, just asking Him to carry me. I just keep picturing the footprints in the sand poem. I need to be carried through this right now. I need motivation right now to just do the everyday things. Right now it is almost 9:45 at night and I haven't made dinner for my older children. This is just so hard.